i read those emails and i deleted them. after reading the first email, tears just rolled down my face and as soon as i finished the last one, it was just going on and on. reading all the things he wrote to me and the way he used to call me, all so naturally when nothing happens now its just so sad to look back on so i decided to delete them cause i cant be living the past.i cant blame him for changing cause no one stays the same, including myself. everybody changes. but why is it that people always say “Stay the same, dont ever change” when in the end, its an empty saying cause somehow somewhat, everyone does change.

well leave this be, im off to be in my own world :)

i have contented much lately whether i should purchase some books in which i would actually be completing my collection and also on starting a new collection. today marks the day of my decision and i have decided, yes i am going to buy these 6 books and im going to do it all by my self :), well of course the money comes from my DADDY, whom has no objections on buying books for me :)

as seen, these i plan to read during my holidays, get away from the computer and plug my ears and read. looking back, i did that when i was in langkawi last year but sadly i wont be going this year. Cameron might be for Christmas :)

well im ending it here, i just cant wait to get my hands on this books, and heck no they wont be my Christmas presents for sure ;)

would you?

some whisk me away to Look Out Point for dinner. the view is breathtaking :)

im looking for Kavisha to do this for me, certainly there would be no one else.

Remember this??

baby, remember this?

1. i like u the way u are..*dont u think bout changing*
2. u make me laugh all the time *i know u hate seeing me sad*
3. u never fail to put a smile on my face
4. i love the way u kacau me *i find it funny*
5. ur one in a million n i feel lucky having u
6. u always give me attention
7. my own personal shrink *winks*
8. u enjoy webbing with me
9. always make me do smth dumb n it makes u laugh
10. have never made me sad/cry/angry *u know how to jaga my feelings*
11. very loyal
12. ur tall *i'm so JEALOUS*
13. cute n charming *cute like chucky...ehehehe*
14. an amazing entertainer *ur better than dave chappelle n that russel guy*
15. u love elmo
16. u always make my day...*u turn it around most of the time*
17. ur so freaking understanding
18. always make me blush
19. ur sweet, loving n caring
20. ur one person i wont give up on even if anything happens
21. ur respectful
22. u hate calculus
23. u love food (espcially deer meat)
24. u love anw float
25. ur day aint full until u kacau me *same goes here*
26. u dont like waking up early
27. u love the way i say ur name
28. u hate my singing
29. u prefer google talk than msn
30. u have the chunnerst personality ever *smth i really adore about u*
31. u love evrything about computers n cars
32. ur always so positive *im such the opposite*
33. u love the simpsons
34. u always sleep in the afternoon *unlike me*
35. u dont like ppl lecturing u or scolding u for nothing..it annoys u
36. u love chronograph watches..

37. u find chem,eng n american studies not easy
38. u dont like presenting infrnt of a crowd
39. u love abraham
40. u want to b a jedi
41. u enjoy contenging my pics
42. u like the color of my eye
43. u wear shoe size 10
44. u like talking to me until i sleep off
45. u prefer oprah
46. u wish u had a bro or a sis *u dont like being the only child*
47. u always let me win
48. ur born in november of 89 on the 6th
49. a very concerned person
50. respecful
51. very polite
52. u have never annoyed me
53. u always ask me to photograph my outings or vacations
54. u love starbucks..(java chip)
55. u stay in subang jaya ss**
56. u go to sunway college
57. u can game the whole night
58. u like my sleepy voice...or when i'm having sore throat (u think its sexy)
59. u want a Isuzu D-MAX 3.0LS Ddi iTEQ Super Commonrail
60. ur gf is the luckiest girl ever to have u as her bf..(honestly)

it feels like just yesterday i wrote all this for you but in reality it was 2 years ago and most of what i stated are still true, and some have just have changed due to age, but i love statement 60, cause its very very very true. I'm living it now and I'm the luckiest girl on earth having no one else but you.

i love so many things about you, how you talk to me, the way you gaze into my eyes, the way you tell me “i love you”, the coldness of your hands when you touch my skin, and so much more, and i especially love it when you have your arms around me :)

i just freakingishly adore the crap outta you :), my love.

the word beautiful doesn't exist in your dictionary

the end is near, just hold on...

ends here

i dont think i would be updating my blog any long, it doesnt seem that important anymore and plus its not like there any particular special moments that are happening, well non that you need to know of anyhow.

well last post of the month. all do please take care :)

owh and and for that lifeless piece of scum who wrote this “i c u alr gt a bf. u r one desperate *****. **** u. dont make me irritate. finaaly got bf now wan2show of. get a life u fat ****ing *****. u so ffat u look like a donat.” on my cbox, AHAHAHA, im not offended at all, you just make yourself look really bad, congratulations on succeeding on that small little thing of yours, clearly shows how much of a piece of shit you are :D

you just made my day :D

crying in the shower, it helps cover the noise. its been ages since i did this until today. i guess it came at a good timing. no one really does care about anything, i learnt that today

my heart, its hurting so much right now. the pain is so unbearable like a knife stabbed in your heart and pressure is placed on it for the pain to be stronger and more effective.

she feels like she rather be dead right now, and that's exactly what she needs right now

here’s to something that i found in my Friendster account

*note: i’ve already deleted both my accounts, and made facebook my loyal love*

was these two pictures. i was actually in search of a picture but i couldnt seem to find it and ended up with this two.

the first, the picture of my ass, oh man i love that ass,

duh well cause its MINE :D

it was in Perfection (at that time, it was the place to be),

guess it was during break and nisha and i would run up to the cafe to get some drinks and snacks :)

secondly, the picture which im so surprised to find!

Vee, Nisha, Lucian and myself!!

it was taken in mcd’s upstrairs! i bet this must have been on a wednesday!! and nisha and i skipped maths :)

Good ol’ memories, here to stay :)